10 December,2016 | 3 years read
Waking up in the morning with a sudden jerk, “Did I miss the alarm?” Checking the phone twice or thrice to see and be sure of what time is it. And then you see a text message from your boss “meet me when you come in”. The first thing you do is think, think about the day ahead. “Should I really go to work and face my boss?” “Did I complete my task yesterday?” “What if I didn’t, did I check before leaving work?” “What if he is going to fire me? What will I do next? Do I have enough savings to survive? What if I don’t get a job after that, whom will I ask help? I won’t have money to pay rent, to buy my essentials, to eat? What will I do? I am doomed.”
Anxiety disorder is just anxiety disorder; it is an every day struggle. For every decision you make, you think like hundred times of every negative possibility. For every choice and every step you take, there an inner war going on in your head, but you try to keep calm and composed as you are equally aware of the people around you. It is like holding a time bomb but at the same time acting cool and not letting others know what is in your hands.
One of the scariest things for an individual suffering from anxiety disorder is sudden, unsure events. These sudden events need not be a big event; even small incidents can trigger anxiety. A stranger walking up to you and talking, the teacher suddenly taking your name, being asked a question you do not know the answer to, walking past a group of people and soon as you pass them hearing them laugh, anything.
It is not just the sudden events that trigger anxiety; it is the uncertainty that comes along with it. Uncertainty of what is going to happen next. It is this uncertainty that puts their mind on a loop of unending negative thoughts which keeps going on and on. Along with that your body too reacts to the whole situation. You feel your heart beat rise, you can hear the blood thumping in your ears, sweating, finding it difficult to breathe, the chill in your spine, at time you even go numb and the surroundings starts disappearing. In moments like these an individual’s minds works faster than a lightning bolt, but the issue is; it works on the negative direction.
Another factor that makes this disorder devastating is that; the individual suffering is very much aware that whatever is going on with them is not “normal”. They are realise that they shouldn’t be thinking or reacting in that manner, but everything seems out of control to them. Their body and their thoughts. It is this feeling of not-being-in-control that makes them take measures such as avoiding certain triggering situations, places, object, checking again and again, etc.
Everyday life for an individual with anxiety disorder is survival; every choice seems like a life and death dilemma. With all the thoughts and bodily reactions the individual is exhausted by the end of the day, still their thoughts do not stop there. The loop of negative thoughts is never ending. If you, or know someone who does, relate to the thoughts and reactions mentioned above; you are not alone and there is help. You need not go through this exhausting struggle every day. There are many mental health professionals who can help you with the various therapies and medications. The only step you need to take is; step up and ask for help. For help call us now on +919741476476.